Unlike me, I felt like procrastinating a lot lately.

I didn’t even feel like working.

I felt scared and just wanted to hide under a blanket watching Netflix and eating ice-cream and nachos! 🍦

(Nothing wrong with that… When coming from an empowered choice.

But when it comes from resistance and avoiding, I think it’s always worth seeing what’s happening underneath the surface).

So, I went and investigated.

I realized: I’ve had some rather big growth recently. 🚀

I manifested the same amount of money I made during all of last year in the first 3 months of 2020. 💰

My email list is growing rapidly.

My partner and I are able to move to a beautiful apartment.

I’m in a conversation to hire my first full-time employee.

I have the most amazing coaching clients.

I even have a multiple 4 figure budget to go shopping… 😱

And although all these things are supposed to make me happy, I experienced a near breakdown…

What on earth was happening?

I spoke with friends and asked some mentors, and here’s what I realized.

In short: I hit my upper limit. 💥

That’s the amount of pleasure, abundance and success I’ve subconsciously tolerated and allowed myself to experience.

Like a thermostat, 🌡 our upper limit can go off when our subconscious brain hits a very exciting new space, and is scared we’re growing “too quickly”. 🤷🏼‍♀️

One of my coaches once said, success is like filling a balloon with air. 🎈💨

It expands and exposes everything — our fears, thoughts and insecurities.

There might have been some small holes in our balloon previously — but we didn’t notice them, because the pressure wasn’t very big.

Once we get successful, it’s like there shines a spotlight 🔦 and gives you the opportunity to heal your fears. 🙏🏻

So here’s what I’ve been doing:

In stead of forcing myself to work “harder” and “get more done” — I’m doubling down on self-care.

That means: morning walks, screen-free time, working out, eating well, sleeping lots, doing mindset work, working less and more effectively, lots of cuddles, hugs, and reading.

I’m getting massages and work done with an energy healer. I’m taking it e a s y on myself. 💕 ❤️ 🌱

The little girl in me loves and needs it. 🧚🏼‍♀️

She has to feel safe and taken care of in order to continue to the next level. ✨

And that’s the lesson I had to learn in order to grow and blossom even further 🌸 🌺 🌹

So remember — next time you find yourself procrastinating or feeling challenged, ask yourself:

What’s the message behind this? How can I take even better care of myself as I’m growing?

Can’t wait to hear your insights. Let me know if this resonates! Leave a comment below and tell me 💕😘

XOXOXO Leonie